So tomorrow is the day I’m nervous and questioning my ability to handle the stress of treatment and everything else that I’m expected to do because nobody else will. I’m just so exhausted and lonely that I don’t see the point. My son asked me a few days ago if I ever thought about just giving up and dying and I had to tell him the truth yes more often than not I just want to die. That was one of the most difficult things I ever had to answer
So tomorrow is the day I’m nervous and questioning my ability to handle the stress of treatment and everything else that I’m expected to do because nobody else will. I’m just so exhausted and lonely that I don’t see the point. My son asked me a few days ago if I ever thought about just giving up and dying and I had to tell him the truth yes more often than not I just want to die. That was one of the most difficult things I ever had to answer