Y M
26-02 2021 02:36
wrote:
I still remember the first time I ever set eyes on her - nearly 25 years ago. I saw the most beautiful pair of legs I had ever seen coming down some stairs as I was sat in the medical center's waiting room. When she came into view I was struck by the most beautiful smile I had ever seen in this life directed right at me. I didn't know who she was at the time but knew somehow she must be a Doctor. I was 15 and she would have been 32,she was like the personification of my ideal woman down to the smallest detail. Everything about her from how she sounded when she spoke - flawless cadence and inflection,her walk and how she moved and carried herself - pure feminine elegance and class. Whenever I would get within 3 feet of her she felt warm and beautiful - class and elegance physically rendered! This sounds awful but whenever I felt down and she would hug me I would always secretly smell her hair and my God she smelt incredible! Just being around her was by far my favourite thing to do in this life. Even at 50 she could wear a dress that would intimidate most 25 year old women to try and pull off wearing but she would wear it and look beyond incredible! The person she was on the inside was without equal - intelligent,warm and stunning. She has kept me going all these years as I wanted to exist in any reality that could contain such a person and I would use the thought of her to keep me going and get me through life and work. I have spent the last 24 years hopelessly in love with her - probably one of the worst cases of limerence ever and I think about her every single day. I used to keep wishing I was the same age as her and lived close to her growing up so we could have been friends when we were little,I always wondered about what she was like as a kid and have always been envious of anyone who got to know her then and spend time with her growing up. I tried SO hard not to fall in love with her as I knew it was pointless and she wouldn't like it but I really don't think it's possible for any guy on this planet to meet a woman like her and not fall in love. I'm sorry I felt that way all this time Sue,I feel like I let you down,but if it makes up for it at all I can promise you it hasn't been easy for me - 25 years madly in love with someone you can never be with - I couldn't wish that on anyone! I hate to admit this but I never wanted to share her time with anyone,I just wanted her all to myself which is a horrible and selfish way to feel but that's how I felt and could never find a way to change it. It blows my mind when I try to imagine how it must have felt for her husband Micheal when he realised she was falling in love with him. Imagine having a woman like Sue fall in love with you - beyond mind blowing! There is nothing in this life that could compare to being lucky enough to spend your life with her. When I would get down I always used to try and tell myself that if she existed then maybe there were others like her and if I stayed alive I might get to meet one of them and spend some time with her except I eventually realised I don't even want someone like her - I wanted her. I'm scared I can never be happy now because regardless of who I may meet it won't be her. Sue was my Doctor for nearly 25 years and when I was sick early last year and she had signed me off work I drew a picture for her even though I can't draw and she is the only person I have ever drawn to give to her as a thank you for keeping me going for so long even though I never got to give it her,tell her how I felt or say thank you. The pencil drawing is from an eidetic memory I have of her from when we first met all those years ago. I wish I could of given it to her so I could have known if she would have liked it or not...
Y M
26-02 2021 02:36
wrote:
I still remember the first time I ever set eyes on her - nearly 25 years ago. I saw the most beautiful pair of legs I had ever seen coming down some stairs as I was sat in the medical center's waiting room. When she came into view I was struck by the most beautiful smile I had ever seen in this life directed right at me. I didn't know who she was at the time but knew somehow she must be a Doctor. I was 15 and she would have been 32,she was like the personification of my ideal woman down to the smallest detail. Everything about her from how she sounded when she spoke - flawless cadence and inflection,her walk and how she moved and carried herself - pure feminine elegance and class. Whenever I would get within 3 feet of her she felt warm and beautiful - class and elegance physically rendered! This sounds awful but whenever I felt down and she would hug me I would always secretly smell her hair and my God she smelt incredible! Just being around her was by far my favourite thing to do in this life. Even at 50 she could wear a dress that would intimidate most 25 year old women to try and pull off wearing but she would wear it and look beyond incredible! The person she was on the inside was without equal - intelligent,warm and stunning. She has kept me going all these years as I wanted to exist in any reality that could contain such a person and I would use the thought of her to keep me going and get me through life and work. I have spent the last 24 years hopelessly in love with her - probably one of the worst cases of limerence ever and I think about her every single day. I used to keep wishing I was the same age as her and lived close to her growing up so we could have been friends when we were little,I always wondered about what she was like as a kid and have always been envious of anyone who got to know her then and spend time with her growing up. I tried SO hard not to fall in love with her as I knew it was pointless and she wouldn't like it but I really don't think it's possible for any guy on this planet to meet a woman like her and not fall in love. I'm sorry I felt that way all this time Sue,I feel like I let you down,but if it makes up for it at all I can promise you it hasn't been easy for me - 25 years madly in love with someone you can never be with - I couldn't wish that on anyone! I hate to admit this but I never wanted to share her time with anyone,I just wanted her all to myself which is a horrible and selfish way to feel but that's how I felt and could never find a way to change it. It blows my mind when I try to imagine how it must have felt for her husband Micheal when he realised she was falling in love with him. Imagine having a woman like Sue fall in love with you - beyond mind blowing! There is nothing in this life that could compare to being lucky enough to spend your life with her. When I would get down I always used to try and tell myself that if she existed then maybe there were others like her and if I stayed alive I might get to meet one of them and spend some time with her except I eventually realised I don't even want someone like her - I wanted her. I'm scared I can never be happy now because regardless of who I may meet it won't be her. Sue was my Doctor for nearly 25 years and when I was sick early last year and she had signed me off work I drew a picture for her even though I can't draw and she is the only person I have ever drawn to give to her as a thank you for keeping me going for so long even though I never got to give it her,tell her how I felt or say thank you. The pencil drawing is from an eidetic memory I have of her from when we first met all those years ago. I wish I could of given it to her so I could have known if she would have liked it or not...
